BYEBYE TO 2010, HELLO 2011!

another 2 days and its time to say byebye to 2010!
time really flies!
another yr gone!
oh my i felt so old all of a sudden,
its just like everyone ard me are celebrating their 21st and now we are all gonna step into 22nd!


2010,
i learnt quite alot of things.
i gained alot of insights of becoming a better person, but at e same time I lost smth so precious to me.


1. this yr started off well with my holiday trip to bkk w my girls! what's life without them right!
xoxo

2. and then a good cny in sg and also msia,
(well i really miss it so much, w everyone gathering ard, next yr's cny is so gonna be so different)

3. work was pretty good, i have good colleagues doting on me,
good boss and everything.
and then came my increment, a v bad one thou.

4. what i love most, all yr round 21st birthday partyyyyysssss!



5. then came a big blow to me,
i lost my grandpa on june 22nd.
my grandpa whom really dotes alot on us.
it hurts quite alot actually,
till now i still could not accept it.
but i really hope he is doing v well at the other world,
and i believe all those near-accidents are blessed by him and shushu.
he will forever be in my heart and soul!
i love you grandpa, i know you can feel it! (:



6. next up is my big hoohaaa 21st celebration at home,
w all my loved ones turning up,
I have the best presents, best wishes and I love my cake so much!
without my daddy and mummy, all these are not possible.
thank you daddy mummy, although I know we are not suppose to hold any celebrations, but really thanks both of you for making my wish come true and being so supportive!
I know grandpa will not blame us, he wants all of us to be happy, right grandpa?


7. had a wisdom tooth surgery!
ultra painful and another one is coming up alr sigh big time.

8. then to end my 2010 well, I had e best Xmas party w my beloved family and relatives!
I love how all of us gather tgt to catch up on each other's life.
it's quite scary to think of the future whr we all will have our own families and then we will not meet up tt often anymore.
hmm nvm, shall put in more effort organize more gatherings!


9. lastly, not forgetting my god-sent-present --> babylove!
thanks for standing by me this 3 yrs, nv leaving me at all.
thanks for tolerating all my nonsense and temper at times.
we have walked so far tgt, and I believe we are gonna walk down all e way, hand in hand, for the rest of our lives!
I love you babylove!

I guess tts what summarize my whole of 2010.
hoping 2011 will be good to me, I promise I will be good too!


NEW YEAR RESOLUTION!

1. successfully set up a biz of my own!

2. to be able to hit my saving/investment target at e end of 2011!

3. a better job probably?

4. studying for a degree!

5. slimmer somemore!

6. actually all those doesn't matter as long as all my loved ones stay healthy, strong and happy, especially my ageing grandparents! really wish they will be able to see me get married and then to be able to see my child!


v v long winded post, but its gonna turn into memories for me,
probably one day when I come back to this site, I can still feel those hoohaa in me.











my cute cuzzie! hehe continue to stay so cute!


with loves,
jocelyn xoxo

its xmas

today is nt like any other days, it's christmas.
why don't you seems to catch what I'm trying to say?
why don't you uds why I keep asking tt qn?

it's xmas, all I want is to sit down w you and have a proper meal,
like how other couples may be doing now.

tts all I'm asking, am I v demanding? ):

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Merry Christmas and a Happy New Yr!

hehe see the amt of present under the xmas tree!

my grandma super cute leh! HAHA!

Merry Christmas everyone!

I had a wonderful christmas gathering this year with my dearest maternal family.
Patenal side grandma, boyboy and cuzzie joined us this yr too!
It was a great one i really enjoyed myself alot.
There are lots and lots of food and presents.
Well, only the kids benefited actually, they brough home tons of presents!
But still wanna thanks aunt and uncle for the presents and also aunt for giving baby one too although he did not turn up.
Love my cousins lots, we have all grown up, getting prettier and handsome.
Awww, i actually do miss our past where we will play tgt and everything.
Now as we grow up, i really hope we will have gatherings more often!
Gonna organise moreeeeee!


However, it was also a sad start of my christmas.
Grandpa told me he feels that he cant live over cny.
i felt so lost, so pain.
really do not want to go through this kind of pain of losing someone anymore.
really pray to all god pretty pretty pls let my grandpa live longer,
at least till he can see us all get married and settle down?
Im gonna visit him more often, acc him more talk to him more.
Hopefully w grandma's companion, he can make it through cny!
yes, i believe he can!
i love you tons grandpa and grandma!




Still thinking what should i do on christmas day.
hmmmm not many shopping centres are open.
dont feel like wasting this day!
My girls are leaving to genting in the morning!
Bon voyage my girls!
take care and becareful alright!
love you girls!




and bestie sms-ed me she got my present already!
yea! so mad happy can haha cant wait for 31st to meet up with her when she's back from europe!
hehe hopefully she can get those things i wanted.
love you babe!
hope you have a merry merry christmas in europe!
enjoy yourself!
xoxo




lastly,
hopes babylove loves his christmas present!
i know its a very expensive gift,
but money can earn back one right?
whats most impt is your health,
once health not there, no matter how much money you have also no use le.
dont worry about my financial, i still can cope for the time being.
awww but i wont be able to hit the target you gave me for this yr!
next yr k! i promise i will and can hit the target you gave!
hehe hopefully by then my stock can raise higherrrrrrrr!
but when is my dividend coming?



still thinking about my new yr resolution.
be back soon!








with loves,
jocelyn xoxo

worries

I can never stop worrying for
my two sisters.
have been trying v hard to protect them from this cruel world which they have not seen before.
it actually hurts me to see them sad or cry.

all my hardworking, efforts and worries to keep them safe and sound from hurts out there is worthwhile when I see their smiles and their bubbly character.
a simple thank you or love you actually warms my heart and soul.
gives me more strength to do more for them.


but how long can I worry and protect them?
really hope tt both of them can learn to protect themselves in this cruel world because you will nv know who will be the next one stabbing you from behind.
hope tt they could become stronger to brave through all these obstacles tt they will be facing in their future.
gonna pray so hard for them tt they can become v successful and prove to all those ppl tt think they are nt up to the expectations.
fck off all these bunch of idiots, I believe in karma for all the things you did to them, you are gonna get back 100000000000 x of what you gave them!

not referring to anyone thou and no particular things happen.
v random thoughts.


k I hate this cruel world,
sometimes I wish someone is there to shield me from all this.




lucky to have such a supportive family. for all the obstacles coming our way, we are gg to face it tgt as a family!



"happiness is having to know you have a caring, loving and close-knit family to turn to when you have problems, even when you keep mum, they are always there for you."


xoxo



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Christmas 2010

tmr is Christmas eve!
oh my I can still remember last yr present exchange in office,
it's just like a few mths ago only!

Christmas is a season of giving.
bought lots of presents for all my little kids.
well only for kids thou,
I'm gonna be so broke if I buy for everyone!
no presents but you will have all my sincere and bestest wish!

gfs are all gg genting on christmas day.
pls take care of yourselves my babes!
pray tt they will be safe and sound and back in sg!
enjoy my girls!

considering to change a new outlook for this boring site of mine.
well I neglect this site too much I guess not many ppl visit this site anymore.
hmms just all of a sudden I feel like gg back to days where I'm so active in blogging about my life and thinking!

all right will be back soon with my new yr resolution!


p.s. I miss waking up to see sweet notes in my phone. :x




my lovely mummy at cuzzie's wedding! thanks for all your love and care! love you!


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RANDOM-NESS

a sudden urge to blog.
its already the end of 2010!
gosh, time past too fast i did not manage to capture everything tt happens in my life.
now i wish 2011 will be good to me, pretty pls.

life is pretty lazy for me!
so lazy to do this so lazy to do tt,
even pouring a glass of water also lazy.
but i have a dream i want to fulfill!
i should really kick this habit.


actually today i realise that i am a perfectionist.
i want everything to be perfect and goes with what i want.
hmms but sometimes its really hard to do it.


and i miss clubbing all of a sudden!
i lost touch w clubs for super long alr!
its one year since i last went w gfs and boy!
oh my i think im getting older,
i no longer have the energy to go out shake.
even chilling at pub tires me.
i really need my night life back!


on a random note,
so many ppl ard me getting married!
i attended two weddings last sat!
it really tires me out to go for one wedding and then to another.
luckily one is lunch and the other one is dinner.
quite happy and touched to see distant cousin getting married,
and gosh i super love my sis-in-law's wedding gown!
hot pink with bling bling ribbons = my favourite combi!
i wonder when is my turn to walk into the room w my another half! hehe
kind of told mumsie my dream wedding tt day,
i want it black and with stairs!
awwww but mumsie is so against black wedding, so is baby and his mum!
i've seen black gown and its so pretty can!
k no black but at least got stairs?
anw, mumsie laughed at me saying i might be the last one to get married among my sis-es.
well, come to think about it, i think i really might be the last!

but on a side note, i have seen so many divorce case ard me too!
and most of them only married for 1-2 yrs.
it really freaks me out to see this actually.
is this the outcome of an early marriage?
looking at them, i kind of have phobia already.
well, i hope they can do well without their useless-asshole-husband!

hehe next up will be baby's sis and gff's wedding!
i cant wait actually and i love to attend weddings!
recalling days when i worked at wedding banquet at hilton,
envy how happy and sweet the couples are!
hehe but now i dont have to envy anymore!
i have a sweet and caring boy by my side!


the yr is coming to an end already!
i have not made up my mind if i should resign or not!
sigh boss has been so gd to me i really dont want to disappoint him.
the pay is no longer worth what im doing.
i think i can get even higher outside??



xmas is coming soon!
bestie is gg europe for her annual xmas trip and e rest of my gfs are gg genting!
awwwwww i really wish i can join them in the fun! *hint hint*
i really miss them loads man
should meet up with them before they go for their trip!
hehe and i really cant wait for my 21st presents to be back!
cant make up my mind thou.


batam this weekend with babylove and his classmates!
am gonna have hell loads of fun before the week starts again!
gonna give a miss to company annual dinner and i kind of feel bad.
nvm holiday is more important!
hopefully bonus is coming to me this week!




k v long post v random v loh soh.
goodnight!

"一个人再厉害，
一生只能留下一两句话.
人有生，有死,
家一代传一代，
心中只要有度量，
才能家和万事兴，
才能没有遗憾!"

-quoted from my aunt.

sweetest boyf ever.

I just had my wisdom tooth surgery ytd. it's was just only one tooth and I could not take e pain. I can't imagine those having 4 pluck out at e same time. it's uber torture to me! I can't eat I can't slp I'm in big pain, even e pain killer is not helping me. BUT I was so happy, real happy, when my sweetest boyf appear at my door steps with two packets of jelly for me to eat, knowing tt I could not chew on food. where to find such a nice guy! I keep complaining tt I want him to be sweeter, without realizing tt he is alr v sweet and caring. from now on I'm gg to appreciate and love him more. thank you babylove for showing me with lots of love and care!  p.s. I can't wait for the day I recover and I'm gonna eat lots of food!

How Much I Treasure My Life Now

we both almost lost our lives.
at e instant, I really thought I will die the next moment.
I dont know how to describe e fear in me now.
am still trembling at e thought of it.

could it be 'dirty' things?

maybe gonggong and shushu saved my life.

thank all god tt we are safe now.
I'm gonna treasure my life v much now.

welcome September!

omg time really flies!
it's September alr.
this mth is busy busy mth w so many birthdays and events!
hehe hope it will be a good mth thou.

feeling kind of lost in life,
but baby's mum helped me to find e route I wanted!
gonna try it out and really hope it works!
by then it will be time for me to say byebye to this company!

loving my life right now w family baby and friends ard me.
hope time will stop at this moment.

24 more days to my 21st!
hehe can't wait!

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THANK GOD!

really thank god for letting me feel so blessed.
hard work do pay off welllll!
xoxo everyone.

last few days was a torture for me.
till now I have not recover from the shock.
I could nt accept thr fact tt gonggong is gone.
am nv able to see him again.

thou he always kpkb at his childrens and grandchildren,
but he was actually v nice.
he collected alot of things in his file and wallet which included the receipt my uncle bought him a motorbike 11 years ago.
he even wrote on a pc of paper the date and time all his 9childrens are born.
why must we only realize e gd points of him when he is gone?

I miss him, really.
I really hope gonggong and shushu are nw in a better world.

found a cut-out article in gonggong's wallet :
不孝顺父母，敬神也没用。
how true.

cherish ppl ard u.
look at their gd points instead of their bad points.
don't wait till u lose them then regret.

i love you ppl.

BACK!

imma back to blog!
totally lost interest and becoming sucha lazy bumsssss.

hehe life getting a little interesting!
have new goals in my life.
imma so determined to achieve it!
hoho thanks to bb for telling me so much bout investment and recommending me to read 'rich dad poor dad'.
its really very motivating.
recommending all of you to read it!
i hope i can do it!
you know money roll money roll, rich gets richer!



anw thanks to my sweetest boy for doting on me so much!
hehe always bringing me to places i want!
sucha blessed girl now.


k weekends ending in 24 hrs time.
and monday wont have monday bluesssss cus its payday!
xoxo

abandon

have been abandoning this space of mine.
not sure why I lost e urge to blog.
probably I alr have a few pairs of listening ears.

have been so busy this few months w alot of 21st birthdays.
everything was great, a good gathering for everyone.
just wish every year will be like this.

however time past a little too fast tt I kinda fear.
it's alr march for goodness sake!
we are all turning older and older,
yet w not much achievements in life.
I kept pondering what I wanted in life,
but I didn't come up w anything.
instead I came up w a list of common goals everyone wants in their life.
hopefully, I can achieve all these goals.

work on e other hand is prettaye bored.
sometimes I just feel like stop gg to work,
or resign and find another job w better prospect.
but I just can't cus boss and colleagues have beenso good to me,
grooming me and all.
how can I let them down?

and bb,
thanks for those words.
I will wait for tt day to come alright!

I MISS BKK!

bkk was awesome with my lovely gfs!
damn it now i miss it so much!
i miss having breakfast buffet in the morning,
and then shopping shopping shopping shopping till the day ends.
no monday blues somemore!
love it!


visit my fb for my pics and vids of xh!
haha!

update again soon!

EXHAUSTED

imma so exhausted.
have been working ot till late for consecutive 4 days straight.
damn felt like im gg to fall sick any time.
k, maybe not tt bad thou.
colleagues are damn good to me,
thou some of them keep bully me.
rahh rahh,
yes you, dont laugh.

and all of a sudden,
i realised tt im sucha blessed kid.
i have a very wonderful dad.
he works 6 days a week, sometimes 7 just to earn lots of $ to support us.
even thou im working now and i didnt give him $,
he will ask if i need extra cash,
of cus lah i nvr take.
damn this kind of dad whr to find!
mumsie was crazy this few days!
she keeps complaining tt im very fat.
she stops me from eating at home.
no supper no nothing.
she even ask me to stand and work after lunch!
damn, love them loads!


and then i met up with gfs and boy-fs last weekend.
was good man.
i love the talks with gfs and the long-time-no-meet boy-fs!



i have loads to post but i have no time.
i need my beauty slp.
nights deserted space.

BRAVE, NOT.

i tot i was brave before today, but now am not.
i dont knw how to describe the lost feeling in me now.
i cried like shyt, like a small kid, lost in the shopping mall.


i lost my dream.
goodbye.